Am I Seeing This Right?

Ever seen something so strange that it's almost scary? Well I'm pretty sure that just happened to me when I came across this picture of what appears to be a guy that likes to maybe possibly seduce vending machines? I'm not really sure what's going on... Can you maybe tell me?






Anyways ever been walking down the street or a hallway at school or maybe just in a store and felt like every eye in that room is watching you? Whether you dressed up to give people something to stare at or you just feel like a pair of eyes are watching your every move. Ever had that feeling?

Sometimes that feeling makes you feel looked down on and other times it makes you very confident but when you dress like that guy did well you kind of deserve to have people staring at you.

GIVE PEOPLE SOMETHING TO LOOK AT IF YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED!! I don't mean dressing up in some ridiculous outfit even though that does work but I mean be that outgoing person that looks like they don't have a care in the world! If you haven't noticed people tend to hangout with those kind of people that look like they don't have a care in the world and have fun with their life without caring about what other people think. You choose whether or not you let that side of you show, you choose whether you shy or loud, you choose all of that! Let your spunky self show! Give something for people noticed and let them see how you can be care free! You've just gotta peel back that layer of shyness or whatever it is that's holding you back.

Be you.

Families? Normal? No Way!

So as like most people I have a big family. We're close, so close it's kind of scary. None of us look the same except for me and my younger sister because we're from the same dad but you can tell we're all related in some strange way that I'd fail at if I tried to describe it, it's something you have to experience personally.

My oldest sister moved out for a couple of months when she was 20 but moved back when she was 20 because she got pregnant. My brother moved out when he was 17 and came back when he was 19.

So I asked my mom "does it ever bother you that you can never get rid of your kids?" she said "I wish I could just buy a smaller house already!" So I told my mom that she could count on me moving out and never coming back, only for visits would I come back for. As far as my younger sister moving out well that's another story, I'm not sure if she'll ever!

My family is like any family. They're CRAZY! Every one's got a crazy family because nothing ever normal happens unless your at like a little party with your whole family then is your family some what sane but when you come back home, you come back home to all the commotion. But in some strange way you love your family at the end of the day even though you can never get rid of them and some times you really want to. I would never change my family for the world.

My sister along with her daughter that live with us are a ball to have! Well not so much my sister because I'm used to her but my niece is a little beast some times, not gonna lie. She can be a real handful for being 1  1/2 years old but she can melt your heart with that red hair and blue eyes of hers. She's bossy, throws fits when she doesn't get her way, gets into everything but she can be hilarious, fun to play with, lovable, and sweet when she's not grouchy. Like mother like daughter ha I'm joking her moms nothing like that well..I'm lying she is a little bit. 

We tease each other about almost EVERYTHING! My moms makes friends everywhere she goes. It's a little weird because a guy will just be standing there and my mom will walk up to stand in line or something and BOOM! It's like they've known each other for centuries! We never give up on teasing her about that. My sister well we don't like to tease her much, she's very quick at come backs. My brother on the other hand we could spend all day teasing him, he makes it funnier because he gets defensive about it. They tease me sometimes but I don't really give them much to tease me about, I'm smart. My younger sister well she goes along with it! She could careless! Half the time you don't even know what she's talking about because she's on a entirely different subject. She's just a little slow at times but is super quick at come backs well...not all the time but most the time.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, families are forever so learn to deal with their sanity.

Somebody Dear

Let me start this off with a story.

"Your just a little kid, you don't know whats going on. People rushing to find some reasoning, people crying, neighbors coming to comfort you. You know why they're there but you don't fully understand. Your little brother just drowned, you have police asking you questions, you don't know where to go.

"Then suddenly you hear they got him to cough up some water! Your filled with hope! Your telling your friends, it's going to be okay, he's going to be fine! He coughed up water! Only to realize the next day you got your hopes up to soon..

"After an hour or so the police and the fire fighters leave. The ambulance left over an hour ago. Your so confused, you don't know what to think, your not sure whats going on anymore. You don't want to stay at your home that night because the house feels empty without him there so you stay at a friends.

"You come back home the next day to still find that empty feeling there, your hoping it was just a dream but you soon realize its not. Your whole world is upside down, your in shock and don't know whether to cry or what. You feel hopeless without him..your brother."

Ever lost somebody you cared deeply about? Someone that always seems to make you cry when you remember the day you heard about it or remember the day it happened? Someone you wish was with you today?

Well I have, that little kid was me when I was 8 years old and he was only 2 years old. A lot to go through when your that young but I'm glad I got to spend those 2 years of his life with him then no years at all. He was someone that changed my life and I'd do anything to have a second chance with. He helped me grow into a stronger person after that and I'm thankful for that. He's a big reason why I am who I am today. He's my hero.

You grow and you learn from everything that goes on in your life. Take it, embrace it and use it to your advantage.

Walking in Someone Else's Shoes

""Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling.  It's just some people hide it better than others.""

Ever wish that you could be in someone Else's shoes? That maybe since that person is always so cheerful that nothing could possibly be wrong with their life? Ever think that maybe they have it just as hard as you, maybe even worse? Ever thought about that?

When a teenager you think everyone's out to get you, to just tell you no. You think they don't care or that person has nothing wrong in they're life whatsoever. Ever think that maybe you just might be wrong? I mean some choose whether or not they want people to know they're hiding something that's bothering them, some choose to let people know. It takes a big person to cover up their feelings but it takes an even bigger person to talk about it but still not show signs that they're hurting on the inside.


Think about this, everything your going through someone out there has it worse or had it worse, wouldn't you much rather have it like you do now then have it like that person has it?


Life is what you want it to be like, no one else can control it.

Lights, camera, ACTION!

Your getting ready, getting ready for your speech, your grand finally. Every nerve in your body is tingling. You rehearse in your mind one last time what your going to say or do. Then suddenly..it's time.

You walk out onto that stage, feels like everyone is watching you, waiting for your every wrong move. To much is soaring through your head you can barely think straight. Your body feels limp, like your floating your way to center stage. Once you get there BANG! your whole body is fine, your filled with confidence, your not shaking anymore.

Then your done and your walking out with the same confidence you had on that center stage. You feel unbreakable, like nothing and no one could ever in a billion years pushed you down. Your strong.

Think of every time you've done something INCREDIBLY nerve racking and when you got through it, it was like a weight lifted off your shoulders! Your confident after it! You feel amazing! And you wish you felt that way all the time. Well why not?! Why not feel like way all the time! No one says you can't and if anyone does then they don't have the power to force you not to. All of that, all that power of controlling what you feel like is YOUR choice no one else.

Take advantage of that.

Ever Wonder..: Ever Wonder

Ever Wonder..: Ever Wonder: "Have you ever been through something in life and thought 'why did that happen?', 'why me?', 'why now?'"

Ever Wonder

Have you ever been through something in life and thought 'why did that happen?', 'why me?', 'why now?'. If you haven't asked yourselves that question then good for you! Stuff happens for a reason, reasons that you don't know the answers behind but everything is like a roller coaster. You'll be up, down, in circles, upside down, right side up and you'll be waiting with every nerve in your body alert just waiting to see what happens next. The only time your calm is when the ride comes to an end but then you just get right back on another roller coaster. The moment that roller coaster starts your waiting for, no your expecting it as your climbing to the top then BAM! you start falling, going in circles, your all over the place. Well life's like that if you haven't noticed that, some handle it better than others because they've been on that 'ride' before and they expect everything that's going to happen but others haven't been through it yet so they feel the rush of adrenalin as they slowly creep up to the top then BANG! they're falling...

Moving around really took a toll on my life, I'm kind of like the teenage gypsy. Don't stay in one house for long, end up moving after a year or so. I don't mind it though, I get to meet so many new people that have the most interesting personalities and because no ones the same I have a verity of friends. They range from different races, to rich people, to poor people, to older people and also to younger kids as well. Of course I have friends my age but that's not the point, the point is I'm the type of person that can get along with just about anyone until I got to High School and boy is it tough. Freshman year I moved to a new state and it was hard because I didn't know anyone, had to make friends the first day so I'd have someone to sit with at lunch but everyone it seemed I tried to be friends with gave me the cold shoulder. I found some that day though lucky for me but it was a hard year. I tried to fit in at first but after a little bit I decided fitting in was for people that were afraid to stand out. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST is what I live by now.  

 I'm an ordinary girl, been on plenty of rides in my short existence but I always seem so find my way to the top. Let me tell you something High School is like a jungle when you first arrive, everyone's so intimidating and girls can be so viscous. Viscous girls are everywhere you go, they're part of that roller coaster you go on which is kind of scary if you think about it but what the heck its your life and they have no say on where you go or what you do they always try to knock you down but don't be afraid to go back up to the top because it's your right to be there and don't let them push you down because they'll always want to do that.

Don't sit there and wonder what life is gonna do next or wonder what if I did something different because there's always a reason it happened that way. Life is to enjoy! Get out there and don't be afraid unless it's something incredibly stupid like wrestling a bear! I mean come on! You'll get hurt and you'll probably die end of story.  Just live your life...teenage gypsy outtt